January 2010
2 posts
Think Tank.
What if for a moment you could be completely invincible. Where would you want to be in that moment?
I’d want to be with tigers so I could stroke them without being killed.
December 2009
1 post
2009, where did you go?
Thinking back, 2009 made way for a lot of changes. Good or bad, I’m sure they have prepared me for 2010.
New Years Resolution?
To keep my resolutions.
November 2009
3 posts
My timing is off, he isn’t ready for my love.
We don’t have a choice in matters of the heart. Just gotta be brave enough to love and let yourself be loved.
Meet me halfway.
There are times where you stare at the mirror and never notice whats staring back.
Then, there are the times where you stare and you see a broken version of yourself staring back.
& just like that, you wonder how you let yourself end in such a state.
such a sad,sorry state.
“I believe that two people are connected at the heart. And it doesnt matter what...”
– (via runawaytrain)
October 2009
25 posts
“How my thoughts they spin me ‘round
And how my thoughts they let me down...”
– greg laswell - and then you.
I am the girl who is retarded. I don’t have those quirks that make guys fall head over heels. Instead my quirks I think are just plain strange.
If I buy a magazine or a book, no one else can read it until I’ve had the first chance to. Not even to browse.
When I eat, I don’t let people try my food until I’ve had the first bite. Also, when I’m at home, I make sure my...
A part of me wanted to badly to believe in you.
& I let myself fall. I fell so hard, so fast.
I guess you could say it is my fault.
I never was good with boundaries. & as much as I’d like to say I built up walls strong enough to withstand a hurricane, you were a typhoon and you knocked them down in record time.
I’m always so afraid of letting people see who I really am....
“The truth is, I don’t hate you. I can never hate you. I’m not on a crusade to...”
– (via eletheowl)
Hmmm?
“Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times. Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more. Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you...
“In a perfect world, you could fuck people without giving them a piece of your...”
– Neil Gaiman (via eletheowl)
Whirlwind thoughts, as if a hurricane just swept through my mind.
Sometimes I don’t even know what I am thinking about. I just know there is a lot going through my mind. And most times I can’t make sense of any of it.
I feel like I’m going crazy most nights. And other nights I just feel ordinary. I want to feel extraordinary.
Oh Well.
Jeez.
Stop calling me your bestfriend.
It’s embaressing. I have hung out with you maybe 5 times?
It’s so strange, so stop.
“There comes a point when you just love someone. Not because they’re good, or...”
Broken.
You know when you’re already broken but everyone around you thinks you just broke?
Yeah, that’s what’s happening to me right now.
Underneath it all, I was already broken.
“I want a guy who will move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me.
Hold my...”
Flight.
I just need some time, to be by myself. To understand what I am feeling. To digest all this. I just need to stay home with my soup and get me back, for now.
I’ll be back by the time school’s back in business!
September 2009
3 posts
Truth.
Truth: we could have been amazing together.
Reality: we will never find out just how great we could’ve been.
August 2009
1 post
Deception.
Is it so wrong to want to be happy just this once?
July 2009
6 posts
either way, i’m going to loose you.
so, i’d rather loose you now for good.
You are my sweetest downfall.
Cos when I’m with him, I’m thinking of you.
See, that’s just not right.
& never knew where to move on.
Never knew what to rely on.
need.a.love.i.dont.have.to.love, should you return.
I wish that for just one night I could fall asleep.
Fall asleep and not think about anything.
Perhaps just think about all the times we were happy.
I wish I wasn’t tired. I wish days merged together and all we are is an accumalation of hours.
I’m so tired my hand and legs are shaking. But I’m too tired to sleep. I’m too scared to sleep. Because the dream won’t...
Ever feel like you’re on the edge of a cliff and everyone around you is pushing you closer to the edge and you know you’re going to fall. But the one’s pushing don’t even know their doing it.
June 2009
12 posts
I don’t know where to start.
There is no head and tail as to where it all begins.
I wish, I wish with all my heart that I can save you.
You are the one person I want to save with all I have.
& I don’t know how.
You are the one thing I don’t want to loose right now & I am shaking.
I am shaking because I am scared.
I am scared I will loose you.
I am scared...
Because.
My heart stopped. I didn’t know what to say.
Sometimes I wish I had the guts to tell you just what you mean to me.
But for now, I’ll wait.
Of comparissions.
I likened the boy to a Chanel 2.55.
Such is my life.
tear.
I really don’t know how to tell you just how special you are. Just how afraid I get when you’re not around. Just how alone I feel when the night passes and I don’t hear your voice.
I don’t know how to explain what I feel.
I feel an uncontrolable amount of love for you till I don’t know if I want to cry or hold you because you are fine.
I want a way out.
I wanna be trash.
On a sunday, I lay in bed, tired from the weeks events.
& in a book I find such comfort it is amazingly scary.
It’s been 2 hours, and as always with this book, I end my read.
In awe of the authors strength & ashamed of my own.
“From that day on, I saw him often. He explained to me with great emphasis, that every question possesed a power that was lost in the...
Random Thought.
Love is an ability. You can fall in love with anyone you want. It’s just whether you want to or not.
I'll.
I’ll never find the right words to tell you just how awesome you are to me.
Just because.
But for you, I would swim the seven seas.
bite me.
To the stranger who holds my heart.
I guarantee that we’ll have tough times.
I guarantee that sooner or later one, or both of us will want to get out.
But I also guarantee that if I dont ask you to be mine,
I’ll regret it for the rest of my life.
Because I know in my heart you’re the only one for me.